Before I started dating there was nothing wrong with me. I wasn’t depressed, awkward or constantly having panic attacks. I was a smart clean student. But now after dating a few girls my life is shit.
I have horrible paranoia and trust issues, I’m extremely depressed and panicky, I had to drop out of school from constantly being harassed. And I’m heavy in to pot now. To most people that’s not a big deal, but I use to tell my self id never need to use it. Because my life was good enough with out it. Now if A few minutes go by and I’m not high I want to kill my self. I quickly get depressed and angry and become open to violence just to get a high. I spend all the money I get on pot money I once out towards collage. For now I’m stuck in a town of people who hate me. If you read this and you know me… It’s not true none if it’s true. The more you believe the more you are deceived. I am not a rapeist. I am not a player. I do not, have not and never will hit a girl I’m with or was with. I’m just a nerd with a lot of problems. Not some horrible person my ex’s make me out to be.